As the winter encroaches and my life starts to settle and a new term starts and the colours of the leaves turn I find myself looking over my shoulder and taking a good glance at the path I’ve just taken, yeah, the one less travelled, and I realise I really am doing okay.
I’ve been thinking a lot about this entry. After the last one. What was my world like? What have I re-created it to be?
While my time at High School was tough for me, and while I have to acknowledge that it has had a lasting impact on me and an enduring effect on the decisions I make, it is also in the past. Dredging it up over and over again, as I have tended to do, ultimately doesn’t do me much good. Hasn’t done me much good. Won’t do me much good.
We all agree that to like what and who we are now, we have to accept that everything that has gone before was necessary. Not desirable always, but nonetheless necessary in order to make what we now have of ourselves. I like who I am. Even the crazy obsessive, pedantic, self-absorbed parts of myself. I’m having to look outside myself less and less to feel good about myself too. Alright, so I’m still a big fat attention-seeker and I still thrive on affirmation, but even so, I reckon I can think I’m okay when i’m on my own doing my own thing.
Today, I love the life I’m living. How are you doing?